Old Self vs. New Self

“You were taught, with regard to your former way of life, to put off your old self, which is being corrupted by its deceitful desires; to be made new in the attitude of your minds; and to put on the new self, created to be like God in true righteousness and holiness.” – Ephesians 4:22-24

This scripture rocked me to the core this morning.  I needed it this morning. Not two mornings ago when it had been emailed to me on Saturday. (I’m subscribed to a great blog called The Heartbeat of the Home and the scripture came from this lovely posting.) But this morning, when I finally got around to going through my email.  God has impeccable timing like that.

I don’t have many words for this scripture…it speaks for itself.  I do have lots of feelings and thoughts, though, which I’ll try to express briefly.  Since accepting Christ as my Savior, one of my continuing struggles has been walking the line between my “old self” and my “new self.”  I’m realizing more and more that accepting Christ as my Savior may be a one time thing that I did in ninth grade, but choosing to “be made new in the attitude of my mind” is a daily choice that I must make.  My “new self” is “created to be like God in true righteousness and holiness” but I must daily pray that God would give me the strength to “put off my old self.”  No, I can’t do it alone, but it is my choice to make.  And each morning, whether consciously or not, I am choosing the person I am going to be that day – I am choosing to be my “old self” or my “new self.”

I know I can’t be alone in this struggle, so I’m expressing what I’m able to in hopes that someone out there can resonate with my struggle.  My hope and prayer for myself, and for you reading this, is that we would daily pray for God to help us put on our new selves, and that we would have the courage to ask for prayer in community when we are struggling with putting off our old selves.  It’s hard to be honest with our struggles, but God has gifted us as Christians with community to do just that – to be honest in communication about our joys, pains, praises, laughs, and yes, even our struggles.

Father God, I pray thanks to you for opening my heart and my mind with this scripture this morning.  Thank you for fellow bloggers whose postings have spoken to my soul.  Lord, I pray that today, and everyday, you would help me to put on my “new self” in you, the self that was “created to be like You in true righteousness and holiness.”  In Jesus’ name, amen.

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GraceLaced Mondays

Where I Belong

Today in my “Human Behavior and the Social Environment” class we finished watching a documentary called “A Lion in the House.”  You can

read more about the film here: http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0492472/.  This documentary follows the lives of five different families who each have a family member struggling with cancer, but in my class we only watched Alex’s story.  Alex began battling leukemia around 5 years old and struggled with this monstrous disease until she passed away at 8 years old.

It didn’t help that Alex had the biggest personality and most beautiful heart… but regardless of who she was as a child, my heart broke for the fact that she was only a child.  I’m not justifying disease and pain and death in adults, but as we watched this film, inside my head I was screaming out to God, “This isn’t right. This isn’t fair. She was only a child.  Why God, just why?”

Last night I was driving in the car and the song “Where I Belong” by Building 429 came on the radio.  Through the pain and grief and injustice of this world I take such comfort knowing that this isn’t home.  This wasn’t what God intended.  When children like Alex die at age 8 from leukemia, God mourns with her family.  This isn’t the world we were made for.

“Sometimes it feels like I’m watching from the outside.
Sometimes it feels like I’m breathing but am I alive?
I won’t keep searching for answers that aren’t here to find.All I know is I’m not home yet.
This is not where I belong.
Take this world and give me Jesus.
This is not where I belong.So when the walls come falling down on me,
And when I’m lost in the current of a raging sea
I have this blessed assurance holding me.All I know is I’m not home yet.
This is not where I belong.
Take this world and give me Jesus.
This is not where I belong.When the earth shakes I wanna be found in You.
When the lights fade I wanna be found in You.

All I know is I’m not home yet.
This is not where I belong.
Take this world and give me Jesus.
This is not where I belong.”